Attachment

Learning the art of detachment has been one of my biggest obstacles in life. There are situations in my most recent days that are bringing this struggle to the surface. I have found myself behaving in ways to bring about results which appear to be satisfactory to me. I will say things I believe another wants to hear. I will act in ways which I think are beneficial to a specific sequence. I realize that what I was searching for was not inspired by masterly action, but by my desire towards self-gratification. This is a very powerful witnessing moment for myself, that I need to remain present with. I was speaking with a friend about my lack of decision making skills. I am currently in a delicate dilemma of what to do with a delicate matter. I could choose Option A - which is fueled by hope and love. I could choose Option B - which is fueled by non-attachment. There is a force within me that feels the need to make a decision. Which way to go? Why can't I decide? He said, "Why do you have to choose at all?"