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I've spent much of today inside, except when I went to the store to buy milk for a chai. I was supposed to get my tattoo done today. I was to also see Yanna. And I needed to purchase Dylan's ticket for his flight to Florida next Saturday. Instead, I've spent the past 12 hours ... wasting away in my misery. When I stepped outside, I was amazed at the brightness in my surroundings. I was almost blinded by the colour of the trees, the grass, the sky. For a moment, just maybe a milisecond of time, I felt heightened in my senses. Then .. it was gone. The retreat is on Wednesday. I have not really prepared myself much for this either. I am starting to feel a bit anxious about the whole thing. Maybe I will invite myself to the center tomorrow for worship. I wanted to go Thursday but didn't because of work. I could really use the resonating sounds of chanting in my being. I'll see if I can drag me bones out of bed for 5 am.