Hideous Monster

I am attuned to what it is you are experiencing. I too, am going through a very delicate & contemplative time in my life as well. I am filled with both deep sorrow and am going through a gigantous grieving period, but I am also experiencing enormous bouts of JOY! How beautiful it is to see and feel and be present with that experience. You'd guess that we share something in common here, and would be able to communicate in a more tender and compassionate manner. Lookng at the innocence & gentle-nature of each other as living beings and responding as such. I am trying to manifest a place that is free for me to speak through my heart. A place which does not limit , nor condition , nor force to constrain these heart-feelings. A spot in the world that aligns with the goal to (just) be the highest truth. That allows me (you, us, everyone) to grow (like wild dandelions) to that place, free from judgement and punishment. I want to wholly (holy) experience this present moment and be free to express in the present moment. Both feelings of joy and feelings of sorrow. Both feelings of confidence and feelings of fear. Because they are all perfect and just so as they are. Lately when I try to express myself to you, I feel there are egg shells under my feet! And I do not want to crush the egg shells. I seek a warm, loving & tender listening place where I can feel safe. Here it is! Inside of me! And she wants to be free. She does not want to feel bound and restricted. And I see the perfection in you, and the place you are in right now. I can see that you cannot receive any truths at this time, as you are so deeply trying to find your own! You are finding, I am expressing! How perfect we are! You are my best friend. I've shared some deep truths with you that no one else knows. And you have shared some deep truths with me too. How liberating for both you & I to feel and find that comfort and safety in each other. This is our connection. But somehow its become lost in mumble jumble transmission. *crackle* Ego Station *crackle* Someday though, we will regain this lost connection. And there will be a warm, loving, judgement-free and non-conditional safe place in my arms and heart for you, just as there is RIGHT NOW at this very moment. I've never fallen off the bumpy path we've been on and I don't intend to. I will pull over and wait while you play in the bushes. I do not know what the future holds (there is no future to hold!) but I do know that at this very precious moment (10:55 pm .. oops there it goes!) I LOVE YOU. Pure, unconditional, forgiving, patient, eternal LOVE. Just like a mommy loves her child. And even though you do not express these truths to me anymore, I know you love me too. In the most perfect and pure form ever. I am smiling at you. Can you feel it? Can you see it? How beautifully warm and tender a smile can be! I share all my smiles with you. Whenever you feel, smile. Know that I smile with you. I saw a comic strip not too long ago. I think it was a Far Side one. Anyways, it was a picture of these two ladies in their home and they were looking out the window of their front door. At the front door, stood a big scary monster. The one lady said to her friend (in some form or another), "Oh calm down. Yes it is a big scary monster but it might need our help!" What you see is what you get. What you see is what you are. Sometimes we forget we all need each other. I share with you My elephant Shoes xoxoxox