New Beginnings

Tomorrow I finalize the details on the house we are moving into on November 1st. My mom thinks I should wait. This coming from the lady who was almost daily sending me emails about when I was moving and how the house needs to be sold soon. Now she's telling me to wait. The house is cute and is barely a 5 minute walk to work and the subway line. Nice backyard and deck. Bedrooms are roomy. Schools in the neighbourhood are nice. Lots of fruit & veggie markets. And if the payments are tight I could always do extra work at the club. I'm actually pretty excited. The only problem I am running into is that the current residents smoke in the house and I could smell it when I walked in. Guess I can do some smudging and cleanse the house before we move in. Moving is going to be insane. More so than moving, packing is going to be insane. A full four bedroom house into a small three bedroom house, I am going to have to let some things go. Quite possibly my workout equipment. My session with Yana today was great. Since I've been back to see her I've seen a big change in how I respond with and to her. I am asking more questions. I am initiating the conversation more so that it is guided into what I need, rather than allowing her to guide the sessions. Today we talked about the correlation of my relationships and how they relate to my relationships with my parents. I was able to clearly see the reflected mirror image that is being presented to me in most of my relationships. Yana says I am fortunate to be able to recognize these mirroring relationships as most people can intellectualize them, but very rarely investigate and explore them and heal from that truth. We talked about Megan quite a bit. Megan is going through an 'identity' phase and is trying to 'find' herself. I am quite concerned about how this fits in with her relationship with Ian, considering his involvement has been sporadic, inconsistant and always on his terms. Not to mention he is the only image she has of men right now. Megan is feeling insignificant and not very important in his life. This breaks my heart. Because I've been there too.