Crumbled Fragments

Graphic and lifelike dreams pervaded my sleep again last night. Startled out of sleep on orderly intervals it seemed. Unlike the dreams of past, these are very pleasing. Meditation this morning was much like the previous nights. Again I felt this expanding sensation as though I was going to burst, but this morning it was localized to my chest area, where the heart chakra is. So much pressure. A warming sensation covered my entire body. I have never experienced such a state of bliss as this. The sounds of drumming have been internally filling my head since yesterday. Piano and flute sounds have not been unusual to me over the past few years. This drumming sound has a very composing rhythm, so deep and soothing. ~~~~ There was a moment yesterday where I felt considerably threatened. The threat was born of the mind and I was indeed in no immediate danger whatsoever. Someone said something to me that I did not like. I felt a reaction emerge, not of the mind but of the body. Closing my eyes, I observed the physical reaction my body was having to the non-physical threat. I felt cool and tingly and my hands were shaking. My heart beat so hard I could feel it pulse in the tips of my fingers. It is wondrous to watch. To be both the observer and the observed right in the experience itself. It was an instantaneous moment. This is fear, I said to myself. And then it died. It all just dissolves. When the mind discovers for itself the observer is the observed. The confusion, the duality, the conflict. Time. That ceases to exist too, doesn’t it. For when the mind discovers for itself the observer is the observed, it no longer lives in yesterday. Or tomorrow. It is right here, in the this moment.