Sleepless

Another night spent in absolute terror. Sometimes (just sometimes), I wish I didn't have to go through this (alone). Very strange dream last night. He was laying in my bed next to me, though I was aware that this scene was unusual as we are no longer together. I asked him something and he replied. I prodded a bit, wanting to keep an active conversation between us and he simply said, "Goodnight Kelly". I remember feeling defeated in that moment. Then looking at him I realized it wasn't him. It was me in physical form. With his voice and his soul. I was suddenly woken up by a huge crashing sound. I sat straight up in my bed. The cats completely unstirred on the end of my bed. I turned to my side to look at him and realized that I was on the other side of the bed, so I looked the other way but he was not there. It took me several moments to come to the realization that what just happened was a dream. I spent the rest of the night laying in my bed, staring blankly at the ceiling terrified to fall back asleep. My heart beat so loud I could hear it echo'ing in my ears. My feet were incredibly hot, almost burning. I wasn't sure exactly what I was afraid of, just that I was very very scared.