Tommorrow

I wonder if one is at all earnest as to why we cannot exist in peace, in compassion, with another human being. Why we hurt each other. I wonder if one truly comprehends that by not abandoning the animosity, hate, disputes and struggles now - it will be like that tomorrow. And tomorrow can extend for years and years, but it still remains as tomorrow. I wonder if one realizes that. How many tomorrows have you allowed these struggles and quarrels to go on for? How many more tomorrows will you allow these quarrels and struggles to live in? In the mirror of our relationships we can see ourselves exactly as we are. But most of us are petrified to see what we are in the mirror of our relationships, to reveal our true selves. In this fear - guilt, resistance and escape unfold. Only when we are free of the conflict within ourselves are we able to be in relationships of compassion with anyone. ~~~~~~~~ During meditation last night I again had the experience of seeing the brilliant white light. At times I felt as though I was streaming through the galaxy as blazing smaller lights shimmered in the distance. I slept quite peacefully and comforting lucid dreams impregnated my sleep. However, this morning I awoke in a state of misery. Knowing that all I see is fragmented images of my illusionary reality I want nothing but to sit in silence.