Voices

It is wonderful to be back into the swing of things here in my daily life. It is true that the real test begins when you return to the world after such an experience like the retreat. I am enjoying the challenges put forth to allow me to put to use my practices. My perception of the world, the people in it and my role has definately transformed. The veil has been lifted. Meditation the other night began as usual. At some point my awareness shifted to the thumping of my heart. This awareness so alert to the vibrations and pulsations of the beating of my heart that I began to feel it throughout my entire body .. in my arms, my lips, my ears, my feet. With every beat every cell in my body vibrated in unionson. Then a very loud ringing started in my left ear. What happened after this point is a little difficult to describe. Thoughts, or conversations, began to form in my mind. Not ones that I recall ever having and ones that seem to be well beyond my level of intelligence. Each thought I'd have would last a few moments and before it was completed a new, completely irrelevant thought or conversation would emerge and this string of conversations continued on for what seemed like quite some time. I felt as though my thought process was literally being rewired, as well as if these conversations or thoughts I was having did not belong to me (at least, not the me right now).