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Every morning, when we wake up, we have twenty-four brand-new hours to live. What a precious gift! We have the capacity to live in a way that these twenty-four hours will bring peace, joy, and happiness to ourselves and others.

Peace is present right here and now, in ourselves and in everything we do and see. The Question is whether or not we are in touch with it. We don't have to travel far away to enjoy the blue sky. We don't have to leave our city or even our neighborhood to enjoy the eyes of a beautiful child. Even the air we breathe can be a source of joy.

We can smile, breathe, walk, and eat our meals in a way that allows us to be in touch with the abundance of happiness that is available. We are very good at preparing to live, but not very good at living. We know how to sacrifice ten years for a diploma, and we are willing to work very hard to get a job, a car, a house, and so on. But we have difficulty remembering that we are alive at the present moment, the only moment there is for us to be alive.

Every breath we take, every step we make, can be filled with peace, joy, and serenity. We need only to be awake, alive in the present moment. ... Thich Nhat Hanh


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Friday, July 07, 2006

In the past week I've observed myself going through a familiar cycle of thoughts. Deja vu ~ dreams & thoughts of you. I find myself locked in an internal struggle. I've worked through this for months and months and I cannot understand why my heart just won't release. This is all brand new to me, even at my age, loving someone so profoundly. There are times I want to pick up the phone and call. Tell you how much I miss you. But I'm frightened. Though I have no-thing to fear and realize that this too shall pass.

I am about 4lbs away from my target of 115. The nightly runs have certainly helped. I'm really becoming bored of it though and might just make a trip to Kensington Market this week or next to scope out some bicycles. The Nia classes are just fantastic. I enjoy them alot and find myself falling in love with my body as I become more connected with this shell through movement. I find that the days where I do yoga before my nightly meditation, the hour sit is so much easier for me. The eating is what's killing me ... I must limit myself in the baking of date balls and organic rice pudding!

posted by I Am This at 1:11 PM

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Blogger CE said ... (4:45 AM) : 

And he doesn't even read your blog.
Try to spread yourself as thinly as possible, and you will be all right.
Concentration won't help you very much if you have too much of it. If you are not careful, it can lead to suppression, repression and even depression.
Well, just writing whatever comes to my mind at this moment.
Don't be afraid of losing control. Even when one is suffering from chronic fatique syndrome, one has still enough energy to be silent, still, and peaceful.
You don't have to hoard so much energy to keep yourself happy.

 

Blogger I Am This said ... (10:37 PM) : 

One thing I've discovered Imemine, is that there is nothing to control. Just surrending to whatever is in this moment.

Sometimes the waves take me so high I can touch a cloud. Sometimes they crash down on me and smother me. And sometimes they let me gleefully glide.

But you are right, he doesn't read my blog surely. And perhaps my breathe, along with my feelings are escaping unnoticed. I just try to witness, acknowledge and accept.

Thanks :)

 

Blogger Hayley's Bed said ... (1:59 AM) : 

Maybe try not accepting...if that's your truth.

When someone does something that is not 'ok' or acceptable, does it help to 'pretend' that it was ok or acceptable?

 

Blogger I Am This said ... (11:33 AM) : 

It's hard to contend that truely loving someone means that the love doesn't stop when their presence stops.

Surrendering to emotion. The heart calls the shots: it chooses who we love. And it chooses when to let them go. But I feel as though I am smothering myself sometimes, as I cannot share this moment, because of the wall thats been built between us.

And I dont want to be a part of the illusional facade of pretending or pushing or burying or running away. I've been in that place long enough to know that it is what causes my suffering.

 

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